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sigh Oct. 20th, 2005 @ 11:34 pm
I miss Abdoul so much right now. God I miss him so much and I am in a room full of strangers and I am on the verge of tears.

No one cares about me in this world. I really am SO alone. With no Abdoul around me. No one can help us with the bills. God I am so sad. Why does everything have to be so horribale. I just want to be with abdoul for more then a few minutes. And I am always out at a coffee shop and I miss him so God Damn much. No one will understand. I have no husband. I am alone.

So alone.

So alone
no one cares
lost forever
i see nothing just lines
my art is all
i got
my husband
gone always
wants to suffer
i think
why cant things be easier
why must i always be
this way
alone while all others clap
sad and no one can
or will
or even want to understand.
I am good at art
at the sight
but what do I see
others around me
they are protected from me by an invisibale bubble
a bubble given to me
by my mother
for life.

woo Oct. 20th, 2005 @ 11:28 pm
Hmm interesting. Someone I thought yelled at me about my icon. Then I retaliated.

When I went to update my journal later I couldnt. When I pressed update it showed only my icon.

I went to read my replies from LJ. She replied saying it was a mistake and she was talking to someone else instead.

I said all was well.

Seconds later I went to reply. And now it works.

Music in my ears Sep. 19th, 2005 @ 06:00 pm
Have you noticed that since the IPOD became famouse, EVERYone now has some type of MP3 player that they use 24/7. And its not just when they work out. Its when they shop, drive, every moment of the day they wear them, I am wearing an ipod right now! Right now in this coffee shop 4 people are blocking out the world with their music and 4 people have computers and one man is listening to his ipod, talking on his cell, and using his computer. I find this ... interesting. This is our now. People so cut off that the sites and sounds of real life seem, not good enough. At work I was bored and looked at the TV. It was a special on people trying to make climbing a rock with your car, a sport. And my co-worker said, "America is really bored"... What is your take on this?

Hp icons Aug. 29th, 2005 @ 04:02 am
This is my first attempt at Harry Potter LJ icons!


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...mood...: depresseddepressed
...music...: Cibo Matto

Aug. 29th, 2005 @ 01:41 am
My brother is funny!
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» real down
1.) Someone attacked my Harry Potter community again. Its all gone.

2.) My husband has to find $2700 dollars by the end of this month or he gets deported. Either that or he finds about $5000 dollars for school.

3.) We also need to find over a thousand dollars for his car insurance. He has to pay a ticket for a criminal driving. I TOLD HIM TO STOP SPEEDING.

4.) I am not makeing enough money to live.

5.) I have not been eating.

6.) I have not been sleeping.

God take me from this place. No one can help me. No one wants to help me. No one cares about me.
» arghhh im addicted
I am 74% Internet Addict.
Total Internet Addict!
I am pretty addicted, but there is hope. I think I'm just well connected to the internet and technology, but it's really a start of a drug-like addiction. I must act now! Unplug this computer!

» quiz
You are .cgi Your life seems a bit too scripted, and sometimes you are exploited.  Still a  workhorse though.
Which File Extension are You?

» :D

My computer geek score is greater than 62% of all people in the world! How do you compare? Click here to find out!

Bah im ganna find a quiz on html then ill score 100%

Im tired!

I got Nintendogs! Yeay!
» Birdies are loud
Well me and Abdoul went out to eat together. He told me he might be going to California for 3 days... That upset me greatly. Cause he says he is going tomorrow. He also said he might not...
Oh its been 4 months or so since we last went out.

Me and Angela hung out. Went places, we drew with chalk on tables, and went to see alot of birds. I want a Parrotlet now. They are awsomeness!

Im tired and have to go pee.
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